Breathe

Don’t forget to Breathe

My house is dark.

Dirty.

I want it to be clean.

Scrubbing every corner of it

I want to make it gleam.

I Don’t know how to redeem

My position?

In this condition,

It’s a mission.

Needing,

Pleading,

Truly wishing

To recondition this condition.

I am Medicated.

I am Numb.

Yet dedicated to overcome

This obsession with depression.

Looking happy but just seshing.

I’m sick of being unresponsive

I need my senses to be constants.

I want to ease it off, cut it down

The Sertraline that clouds my thoughts

I want to Spit. It. Out.

Don’t forget to Breathe.

Feeling again.

The Lump wells up inside.

Skin sticky.

Mind messy.

Legs heavy.

Feels Stressy.

I can't see no more

Breathe

I can't hear no more

Breathe

Screeching stabbing

in my stomach.

Maybe I'll throw up.

The medication’s wearing off

And now it’s feeling, getting tough

Don’t forget to Breathe

I had a drink last night

So maybe that's it?

My body's feeling weaker

And I can't talk ‘bout it.

I usually can,

Just talk.

Explain about the man

Who fucked me just because he -

Stop.

Breathe.

I cried with happiness

For someone else's joy last week,

Fuck me did that feel good.

To laugh so hard with my pal...

The numbness has subdued.

Breathe

I remind myself that it can't be all positive.

When there's up, there’s down.

It's overwhelming.

Gal, embrace it -

Collapse in

Cuddle up

Curl and coil

Publicly.

Stop feeling judged for feeling.

Breathe

Slowly.

Drink the water.

Release that anx with a single shout,

Or maybe two.

But not to fear if you reach four,

‘Cause this moment soon shall shift.

As a new beat takes its place.

Heart slowing

Breathe

Stomach settles

Breathe

Birds crowing

Breathe

Eyes level

Breathe

You ain't feeling right.

It's given you a real fright.

But mate that's totally alright.

The next step is in sight.

Don’t forget to Breathe.