Grotty

I'm grotty and I'm snotty and I'm full of fucking cum 

sitting naked on the toilet with it dripping down my bum

I had been flirtatious

I liked it when you grabbed my waist

And I had kissed you back 

Your breath was sweet, a sugar taste

At 4am we drove round Pai

A noodle stand for our first date 

And I was drunk as sin 

But trusted you to lead the way. 

I had come to your house 

And let you touch my breast 

I had come into your room 

And with you I'd undressed 

I told you I didn't want to fuck 

And you had said that's fine 

That we could just lay together

With your body next to mine,

I thought it romantic 

The passion and the ease 

Being with this almond eyed man 

But then you ignored my pleas

At first I thought to let you 

Like I'd done for many men,

But then it began to hurt 

And I couldn't do it all again

I asked you to please stop 

And I cried out in pain  

my begs were just not heard 

Not until you came.

A girl called out 'are you ok'

And the door was knocked 

'Asha, can I help you?'

I could not speak from shock 

A man told her to leave it

With this you had stopped

My skin was crawling as I slipped down 

To the end of your bed, I rocked

The footsteps walked away 

I felt still in time 

You put your arm around me 

And told me it was fine 

Then asked me to lay beside you 

You put your hand in mine 

I coiled away from your touch 

I heaved and told you no 

I told you that I had said to stop 

But you didn't see it so

You seemed upset and pleaded 

For me to lie back down

I couldn’t and wouldn't, please let me go,

you continued to pine. 

You Unlocked the door, 

To let day light in

We wander out together

And the sunlight kissed my skin. 

My feet are weights, 

My eyes they ache 

My heart is lost in terror

I hitch a lift on an old mans bike 

His flesh, rough like leather.

You wave goodbye, 

but I can not look 

I collapse into sunny weather

I'm grotty and I'm snotty and I'm full of fucking cum

sitting naked on the toilet with it dripping down my bum

I feel so disgusting 

That wasn't fucking fun.